गमन :

It is amazing to see how people crave for recognition at work. Recognition in this post's context, is sometimes synonymous, in a degenerate case,to attention. Recognition for some is a promotion or an appreciation award, a great bonus or just a pat on the back. A lack of it simply leads to that person questioning himself/herself "Why am I doing this ?" and summarily to deterioration in performance. The perception also varies for those at various levels/grades. It takes a lot of self-motivation to gather oneself, when you know you are not amongst the one recognized for your efforts. The vital part of the above observation is comparison. The most likely reason you are wondering why you are still undertaking your thankless job, is the very sight of somebody else being thanked. Seldom does one give a thought on why the other is thanked. Even if sufficient reasoning is present to support the others case, the mind is conditioned to shoo the thought.There are other cases, of course, that are favorable to you and more weird cases where none are recognized, leading to a general discontent. I have seen 'em all. Some resign to destiny, some are incisive enough to drive their case forward to ensure recognition and the rest quit. I will give you zero bucks to tell me which category I fall in. I personally feel(although I can't myself), every one should do all the above, just that, it should be right place and at the right time.

चित्त विश्राम्यतां - Resting my mind !

Work has been busy, there is a critical case in progress, yet not so busy, since the issue does not happen very easily and there is not enough data to debug.

My mind still continues to be busy, lot of thoughts cris-crossing, mostly focused , on what I am going to do soon in life and some random. And I am blogging now means, there are random thoughts flying by.

I have been keeping myself busy, even during my free time these days. It is important that I am doing that, since my friends I catch up with during these free times are no longer around. Even if they are, they are all busy too ! I am still catching up with one of them, since I have started to hit the gym. I have had enough of feeling unhealthy and seeing nine in the tens place on the weighing scale. Seeing Srinath occasionally is all the more inspiring. Two weeks of gymming has bought eight in the tens place, but I still see nine in the units place :(

Looking forward to friends coming down from Mumbai during Diwali. There will probably be a trip and I want to do a really well planned one this time. When I mean well planned

, I want to foresee most importantly the dry days :)

Auxiliary fun in life is thoroughly enjoyable only if the main line is settled, calm and collected. Lot of work ahead, especially to feel the contentment I want to experience starting August , 2010.

Climbing up hill, but I have company.

एकोहम

I came into office, fresh. The climate was gloomy, but my mind was still fresh ! I was coming back after a long weekend. I had a gala time, all by myself. Did not meet a single soul, just me and my parents at home. It might sound depressing, but I loved it.

Well coming back, I came to my cube. I was early as usual and there was nobody else. Everybody around me was taking off further, on the occasion of another long weekend coming up. i thought it will be a miserable day at work. But I liked it as well.

I probably have to realize what the picture says some day. May be not solo, but just with a

n elite few alter ego's.

Hope this happens some day and I am as invisibly happy as this person in this picture is.

ThanDe - MagaLu

I finally saw the movie Abhiyum Naanum ( Tamil ) / Aakaashamanta ( telugu ) during the Dussera festive season. Yes, I saw both versions. I don't know why, but I simply loved the movie. It was fun, it was real and very well made. Most characters in the movie, including Prakash Raj, play villain roles. I must say, the entire team did a wonderful job in their respective roles.

Prakash Raj, needless to say is a wonderful actor, but he did an excellent job with such a soft role. Trisha, did a great job as well. I especially liked the scene where she confronts Prakash Raj and tells him that she is disappointed with him, the reason being his behavior after she reveals that she is in love with a Punjabi.

More than the movie, I loved the essence. It had a unique flavor and it had a unique interpretation. Father's and daughters are always very attached. There is something unique there, but what it brought along was a philosophy of the ephemeral things in life. There is this element of possessiveness in every relationship that people simply fail to recognize it. We generally find it very hard to let go, gracefully, things that are very dear to us, whether it is a substance without life or a person.

NirNaya

Decision making is such an integral part of life. It has always been tightly coupled with our day to day life and yet has been so subtle, that we hardly notice. I have subjected my mind to considerable exercise recently and it has been difficult.

The most difficult decisions are those which get you out of your comfort zone. I know that every active human entity must do this frequently, to keep themselves on their toes, but it is something I realized recently to be the most difficult decision to make. I was young, when I was comfortable with my watch on the left hand. I decided to change it, started wearing it on my right hand and eventually got very comfortable with it. For various reasons, later I just got averse to wearing a watch and I do not remember when I wore it last. I should get back to my watch wearing days, just to get out of my confort zone, again.

But these were easy decisions. I am settled in my job, in a company which people dream of getting into, liking it, working with great collegues, nice boss and what not and I decide to move on. My parents are soon going to have a life, where they will retire at home, enjoy the relaxation and can go places, where it would be all the more nice if I could take them around and I decide to move on. My house is renovated, I will be in a european styled closet regularly after 24 long years, transitioning from mosaic to athangudi, my bathroom will have high flow showers, I will have a beautiful high terrace where I can laugh

to glory with friends and I decide to move on.

I have decided to move on, to go back to school. I have increased my chances by faring well in my entrance exams although I was only partially motivated. I know I will get to a place where education is reasonably enjoyable and have fun there as well. I am only waiting for the day, where I make the decision whole heartedly and say this is what I want and go for it. I am happy to be uncomfortable again !